Up To Now: The Movie by Carol Es (Ayin), Jonathan Nesmith and Susan Holloway

Limited edition flash drives for your viewing pleasure.

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Up to Now is the six-minute movie created by Ayin Es (Carol), Jonathan Nesmith, and Susan Holloway as part of the the Exodus Project. This slick custom engraved flash drive is a beautifully vibrant play of the movie at its highest definition. Narrated by Ayin Es, the story covers their "exodus" into the high desert terrain near the Joshua Tree National Monument in Southern California.

Up to Now is both literal and semi-abstract. It features animated characters against the unique Joshua Tree landscape. The two main characters are, "Moppet" - a long time autobiographical rag doll that Ayin has used to represent themselves in their art, and a giraffe-like thing named "Yuddy," who has a yud (Hebrew letter) as its head, which is meant to represent the artist's spiritual quest. In Jewish mysticism, the yud is also known as The Infinite Point. It is the spark of G-d's infinite light to make a place for creation within a single void. Thus, the yud has the power to contain EVERYTHANG - a kind of ultimate learning experience for Moppet to live along side their emotional baggage (or "junk") throughout her/their trek in the desert.

The flash drive lives in its own 3.5 x 5 inch black hard boxe with a flat magnetic closure and is available in two separate editions:

Artist's Proofs - an edition of only 10. These were originally produced for the first conception of Exodus, the solo exhibition at Shulamit Nazarian Gallery in Venice, California in 2015. They include the orange promotional badge on the cover, along with a description of the movie on acid-free velum produced by the gallery. They also come with an original 4.5 x 3.25 inch watercolor and ink painting of Yuddy on archival illustration board that fits perfectly inside the little black case. These paintings are signed and numbered by Carol Es.

the Spark Edition - an edition of only 20. This 3.25 x 4.5 inch, 20-page handmade Artist's book has unique markings in colored pencils, Sumi ink, pen and graphite. It is printed on 100% cotton Moab and Strathmore papers and includes a Zen-like circle watercolor painting inserted into the centerfold, imported papers from Italy, linen card stock covers, and a hand stitched binding, plus Epson Ultra chrome K3 inks otherwise used in the printing process. Additionally, there is a small antique paper label with doodles on the back. These books are all original works in every way, signed and numbered, packaged like a gift and tied with waxed linen thread in a black clamshell case labeled with a playing card faced down-- as the back has an old painted picture of Joshua Tree in the spring time on it. Oh Jesus, you can't beat it for $175.


Price: $75. Artist's Proof - signed and numbered.
Price: $175. Spark Edition - signed and numbered.

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Artist's Proof Edition:

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Here are a few stills from the movie:

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