About This Artwork: here I was just beginning to take medication for bipolar disorder and very scared that the pills would change my inner essence. The garment patterns in this painting are shaped into the Hebrew letter Shin, which signifies the Eternal Flame, but the word "shin" can also mean "change." There is a secret verse in Kabbalah about a burning coal or eternal flame that goes: "I am God, I have not changed." And that is sort of what I'd hoped for in meditating on this letter, hoping my artistic personality would not change because of the medication.